Well the thing that is at the front of my mind at the moment is something which I only found out about tonight.
You see, a while ago I got involved with this guy. Well, not involved exactly, we only met once or twice. But he talked the talk and I was having delusions of
love. And long story short, he turned out to be a total you know what.
I used to talk to him on a site like MySpace. And after he hurt me, I never went on there.
But tonight, I went on it, and his comments were gone, and he had completley vanished. I told my friend, and I was saying thank god hes gone yay and all that
stuff. And then she said "I have a confession to make" And alarm bells started ringing lol She told me that after I got upset about him, she had
hacked into my account and removed any trace of him!
This totally threw me off! I didnt know weither to thank her or hate her! I said I was dissapointed she didn't tell me, but I know she wouldnt do it to
hurt me. But still now, I'm in shock a little. I'm glad hes gone, but I don't know if she did the right thing really.
Also, I've been working hard on some films latley, and now I have only 10 days left to finish my film for my college interview. And every time I try to do
more it just depresses me for some reason. Because I'm doing it alone I think.
Sure my mum helps me out, but I always feel like she would rather be doing something else. And the pressure is just beggining to get to me a little. As a
matter of fact I have a throbbing head ache right now because I've been worrying about everything and nothing.
If I don't get into college I'm not sure whats next for me. I've applied for a job in a local store, along with my best friend.
But lets face it, stacking shelves is not exactly a career. hehe. And even if I get that job. I just know I'm going to let myself down. I've always had
this fear of being asked to work with numbers, like on a check out or something. Because I have slight dyslexia with numbers. I read and write them back to
front a lot. And it annoys the hell outa me. I'm just so worried I'd end up screwing it up. God I moan a lot don't I hehe Perhaps my mum and nan
are right though. I mean, I do say "I can't" quite a lot. I guess its all just about having a positive attitude.
Now I don't know how many of you believe in physics. But I do. I've been seeing them since I was about 10. And these aint no con artists. The youngest
members are about 80. hehe. And theyre lovley people. A lot of the things they told me have happened. For example, the predicted all the trouble with the guy I
mentioned earlier.
And a while ago one of them told me I would go to college, so I'm hoping shes right there. And one said to me once
"I really hope I meet you in 5 years time. You'll be a very important person"
Now, I have no idea what that means. I tried to ask him but he wouldnt give details. So I'm not sure if I'm excited or scared by that hehe
Anyway, I'm blabbering too much.
Night folks,
Kizzy
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